Brain Damage

Why can't they come up with a better scent for Static Guard?  I would like to remove the "static" from my office, but if I do, I will be forced to inhale that God awful smell.  Not sure how that one gets passed the lab sniffers.

I should have never gone on this medicine.  I was warned.  It will change your brain.  It certainly has.  That's the thing about medication.  It helps one thing, but effs up another.  *sigh*   But life is just one big learning lesson, right?  I believe it to be.  The question is...  after we learn all this STUFF....  what's Next??

I know that you are only supposed to live in the Present.  But.. I cannot Help but think of the Future!  What will I be doing.. where will I be in.. 27 years??  Is there REALLY a specific designated path you should take??  Is it in fact already mapped out for you?  Nah.  I don't think so.  We have that gift of Choice.  We can Choose wherever we want to go.  But..  is that choice already pre-destined?  Haha... 

I've been having funky dreams lately.  It's been quite some time.  For the past year (at least) I haven't even been able to remember my dreams.. at all.  So, I don't know if I'm having interesting ones and just not remembering.. or having boring-ass dreams that aren't worth remembering.  What do I classify as an "interesting" dream?  Something that cannot happen in "real life".  Or.. not likely to happen in real life.  Such as.. HEARING wounds on someone's chest seeping and bubbling.  (had that a couple days ago)  I once had a dream about an auto accident (why did I just write 'auto accident' when I say 'car accident'?)  At the scene of the accident I found styrofoam containers full of... body parts.. mixed with linguini.  Yeah.. that's some messed up shit.  I've definitely had the dreams of a druggy.  I wish I could remember them all.  I really could write a best-selling book.  I know someone who has better dreams tho.  You know who you are.  So good in fact, at one point I swore she made them up.  Man I'm jealous of her dreams...  wish I could fly around in there sometime... 

I often feel that there are two sides to me.  Two Totally different sides to this one being.  I believed it could possibly be a split-personality.  It could also be that one side is in tune with the Soul (which I 100% believe exists) and the other side is completely disconnected from the soul.  That's really what I think it is, because if I had a split personality, I think some real crazy shit would have went down by now.  Plus, I can FEEL it when I'm connected.   Separating ourselves from the physical.... and only embracing the spirit.  THAT is what I define as "success".  That is when you do what you are meant to.. and all of your decisions in life are easy ones.. because you are embracing the Real You. 

Man, I haven't worn make-up or jewelry for like 2 weeks.  I feel like a bum.  I gotta get my shit together.  It's been a twisted 2011.  Wonder what the new year will bring . . . .